'I had a terrible dream'Saturday 3 January
I had a terrible dream yesterday with military helicopters and the Taliban. I was afraid of going to school because the Taliban had issued an order banning all girls from attending.
On my way from school to home I heard a man saying, 'I will kill you'. I walked faster, and after a while I checked behind me. But to my relief the man was talking on his mobile.Thursday 15 Jan
Tomorrow the Taliban's order comes into effect, and my friend was discussing homework as if nothing out of the ordinary had happened.
'Some of my friends have left'Friday 18 Jan
My father and the prime minister said that the government would protect our schools. I was quite happy initially, but this will not solve our problem. So many soldiers have been killed and kidnapped, but the police are nowhere to be seen.Thursday 22 Jan
Some of my friends have left because the situation here is dangerous. I do not leave home. At night, the Taleban ruler warns females not to leave home. He also warned that they would blow up schools.
'Dozens of schools have been destroyed'Saturday 25 January
The army only considers protecting schools after dozens have been destroyed and hundreds of others closed down.Wednesday 28 January
We are staying with a friend in Islamabad. It is my first visit to the city. It's beautiful with nice bungalows and wide roads, but it lacks natural beauty.
'I am sad watching my uniform'Saturday 7 February
I saw people with long hair and beards who looked like Taleban. Some houses are damaged from shelling.Sunday 8 February
Looking at my uniform, school bag and geometry box makes me sad. Boys' schools are opening tomorrow, but the Taliban have banned girls' education.Tuesday 19 February
I told my brothers that we will not talk of war but peace from now on. Our school headmistress said that examinations will be held in the first week of March. I will study harder.
Source: Moving moments from Malala's BBC diary
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